I love how I get things over with easily. I tend to forget easily and move on with my life. But sometimes this could turn out to be my most grave flaw.
In search for independence and perhaps enlightenment, I have this proclivity to drive wayward, and to let loose till I drop…to the point wherein I don’t know what I am doing anymore. Attempting to control my tear ducts from bursting in public transport twice is what I needed to learn certain life lessons, and more concretely, to suffice as a caveat from doing anything beyond bounds just to ‘find myself”.
I don’t know if days when I couldn’t care less about anything are helpful, or an avenue to seek adventure in a foolish situation at a wrong time. Or is ‘finding yourself’ a sufficient reason to do something stupid? Living life is that perplexing.
What on earth was I thinking? Sometimes stupidity needs to yield its equivalent consequence/s to emphasize a life lesson, and more concretely to suffice as a caveat if I succumb to it again in the future. I (unintentionally) made irrational decisions to find answers, not to disappoint anyone. It sucks that just recently..I pumped up blood pressures and caused headaches with my inane miscalculations.
Maybe I needed that for a total refresh. I needed to get bricked, and let the painful swelling lead me back on track.
Give me time and space to figure out things. Please don’t jump into conclusions hastily. I’d rather deal with any other problem than losing one’s most coveted and treasured trust.
